I just received the notice for the AGM of Daiwa Reiki Kougyou (大和冷機工業, 6459) along with my voting card. They make retail business oriented refrigerators, or something like that. The AGM is being held on Friday the 28th of March from 10:00 in central Osaka. There are 4 proposals to be voted for, 2 proposed by the board and 2 proposed by a shareholder. The board proposals are to reappoint themselves, and to give a big fat bonus to a retiring director. The usual shareholder raping stuff. The two shareholder derived proposals are much more interesting. The first proposal is to strip the board of the ability to decide the dividend and have it decided by the shareholders at the AGM. The second proposal is to set the dividend this year at 70 yen per share (as long as net profit per share for the year is above 75 yen, and if less than this level, then set to net profit per share minus 5 yen). For the past 10 years or so the dividend has been 10 yen a year (5 yen in two semi-annual payments), so this would be an extremely large raise. The most recent trade of the shares on the Tokyo Stock Exchange was was at 661 yen, which would give a 10.6% dividend yield if enacted.
To get a better feel for the performance of the company and to put the numbers in context, here is a graph of the cumulative dividends, net cash per share (cash – total liabilities) net current assets per share (current assets – total liabilities) and book value per share since December 2006:
While growth has slowed since 2009, this is hardly a bastion of stagnation or a company on its last legs. Net cash per share is over 80% of the market capitalisation (34 billion yen), you can almost buy this company for free. When I first stumbled upon Daiwa in late 2012 it was trading below 400 yen and was the cheapest thing I had ever seen in my life. Indeed I doubt I will I ever see something that cheap again, even if I last to 100 years. I rushed to buy whatever I could but in an unfortunate coincidence the share price started to surge around the same time and I soon gave up trying to build on my position in an irrational frustration, despite the shares still being ridiculously cheap on an absolute level. Such is the danger of psychological price anchoring. I only got my hands on 2,000 shares in the end.
Coming back to the shareholder proposal, a quick search indicates it was proposed by “Japan-up Beta Enterprise Group” (that’s my attempt at translating the name) an investment fund owned by “Strategic Capital Inc.” They own 4.3% of outstanding shares and they’ve put out an English translation of their 2 shareholder proposals. This was actually published on the 20th of January, but I didn’t notice it.
I’m already up 69% on my original investment (ignoring the dividends that I also received over the period), but considering this catalyst development, the fact that the company continues to pile up cash, and that it still remains extremely cheap on an absolute basis, I’ll likely direct all incoming capital to accumulating more of Daiwa (provided the price does not increase too much from current levels). I actually expect the 2 shareholder resolutions to be rejected, though looking at the distribution of shares there is a chance it could pass. I have only limited information on other shareholders, such as a summary of the 10 largest shareholders. Looking at that, the board itself controls around 17% of the shares, which will certainly vote against the proposals. A company called Nihon Reiki controls 13.5% and another company DRK controls 12.4%, both of which likely have close relations with the board. Two Japanese banks own another 5.8% and along with an entity called “Daiwa Mutual” which owns 1.6%, I expect them to toe the board line. However The Bank of New York Mellon owns 2.1%, and they could reasonably be expected to vote in favour of the shareholder proposals. This leaves us with 6.45% esimated in favour, 36.63% estimated against, and a further 56.92% in the hands of smaller shareholders. From additional information I have, 20.5% of all shareholders (including the 6.45% accounted for above) are foreign, which could be expected to support the proposals. Depending on the nature of the other smaller shareholders, the proposal could be soundly defeated or actually pass by a moderate margin. If employees own a large amount of shares they would probably vote in line with the board, while individual Japanese investors and proactive Japanese investment funds would probably oppose the board. I’d expect trust funds and other Japanese companies to be on the side of the board.
I’d love to go the shareholder meeting in Osaka, as it could be a bloodbath if someone from Strategic Capital starts berating the board for their incompetent capital allocation. This is probably one of the most overcapitalised companies in the history of the Earth, so the beratement would truly be deserved. However my own brutal self-interest will stop me from going, as I’d rather redirect the funds that I would expend on travelling to Osaka to buying even more shares. I’m pretty sure the only way to know by what percentage the proposals were passed/rejected is to go the AGM (if they even provide that information at all), which is unfortunate.
If the resolution does pass there’s potential to unlock massive amounts of value. If the board could eventually be ousted the company could be stuffed up with debt as happens in private equity deals, and a massive dividend payout well over 100% of the current share price would be possible and there would still be a profitable company with a reasonable amount of debt left behind.
For anyone interested in acquiring shares, the ticker is 6459 on the TSE, minimum trade is 1,000 shares which at the last price of 661 yen per share would mean a minimum investment of 661,000 yen.
I posted my voting card this afternoon, against the board and in favour of the shareholder resolutions.
Sun, March 16 2014 @ 18:03 » Investing, Japan » 1 Comment
Recently I came to the somewhat surprising relisation that I am the only one of my friends who wants to be rich. One could say that almost everyone wants to be rich, but that’s only when using a loose and vague definition of richness without any conditions attached. I define rich as having passive income in excess of expenses, and I define want as something that one has modified one’s life to actively get. Thus I divorce richness from the absolute level of spending and only allow someone to claim they want something if that is actually reflected in their actions. A man with little spending is rich if he doesn’t have to work to sustain it and a man is poor if he spends in excess of his passive income, even if he is surrounded by signs of large consumption greatly above the average.
As for why one would want to be rich (by my above definition, and no other), when one is poor one has to convince other humans to purchase ones labour in order to avoid starving to death. This is a very bad thing. It creates an unavoidable coercive relationship between oneself and other humans. It is impossible for a slave to have a genuine relationship with its master, or even with other slaves. The time consumed and physical toll are in themselves highly revolting, but more importantly being employed triggers a sort of cultural/spiritual rape which gradually strips men of their fundamental thought process. Even though no man, whatever his silly protestations to the contrary, would actually consent to his present labour arrangement if he lived in a world of automatic distributed abundance, there is an overwhelming urge amongst most to rationalise the situation as something that was intrinsically desired and even planned. And so even though the situation is fundamentally coercive, revolting and a chasm away from what the truly free would choose, it gets wrapped up in ridiculous narratives about having a career, working to live, getting ones dream job (dream slavery arrangement), etc.
Children are told to think about what careers they want, it’s presented as something that they should want, even though it’s only what the subset of intrinsic masochists among them actually want. The irresponsibly optimistic will often frame a revulsion towards slavery as merely being a state where one has just not yet found the right kind of slavery for oneself. As if finding a kind master is the same thing as being a free man.
People can only see what they truly want when they envision a state of existence without any of the silly practical constraints, relationships and arbitrary arrangements of the current world. This is what everyone should be wrestling internally with. This is what children should be shown as being the most important thing that they should do. It is easier for children to do as they have not yet filled their lives with things that on reflection, are not actually in line with their fundamental unwarped (as in, uninfluenced by arbitrary factors around them that they did not choose) desires. Older individuals will find it harder and harder to confront this if they have never done it before, as they also have the cognitive dissonance from realizing that much of the narrative they constructed about their own life was reactionary, excessively influenced by arbitrary circumstances and composed of a string of rationalisations.
I often refer to the above reflection as the internal struggle with the void. I call it the void because it is vast and almost always overwhelming, as one must consider the very fundamentals of existence, the most difficult and almost frightening being one owns consciousness. On a similar level the arbitrariness of being human and the related limiting factors both physical and mental that will likely be overcome with future technological advancement in wonderous transhuman development that will probably leave all cultural development thus far as a pitiful attempt surpassed by orders of magnitude (and I sort-of hate to say this, as there is some culture that I find to be an awesome mind fuck and find it difficult to fathom greater endeavors)
On a slightly less high level, there is also the consideration that one did not choose ones race, gender, family, nationality, immediate starting conditions, initial language comprehended, era in which one is born in and so forth. It most insightful to consider the vast vast generations of anatomically modern humans stretching back the past 200,000 years, most of whom lived lives far more brutal and short than our own brutal and short lives. But they (likely) had just as much innate capacity for cultural and philosophical development as those of us alive in the present era, but bitterly unfair arbitrary timing had their capacity squandered in an era where they spent most of their time hacking through a spam of death in order to try and just survive in the most basic manner. Their lives were no less “legitimate” than ours or those to come, if the atoms just happened to be arranged in the same manner all the things possible today (and the things that will be done in the future that we know not yet of) could have existed then. As far as I know, there was no fundamental difference in the nature of the universe that would have prevented my computer from existing and booting up say, 141,131 years ago, provided the atoms were arranged in the same manner (an electrical generator would also be needed). There was no physical impossibility that the insightful individuals of the time couldn’t then just watch some anime on the device. The same applies for future technology, it’s just a case of arranging the atoms in the right pattern…the era itself is arbitrary.
But reflecting again on the past generations back tens of thousands of years, theirs is the true tragedy, far greater than any travesty in the world today, conscious life utterly wasted that can never be unwasted. But even for all the advancement, our own lives are nothing but squander compared to the lives that will be lived in thousands, tens of thousands and hundreds of thousands of years to come. In the greater long term narrative (though I detest all narratives) we will likely be grouped with the other humans of the last 200,000 years as those who lived in the crap bit, where people still aged and died and worked and never achieved anything of comparable cultural insight to that which came after.
Anyway, one can go on almost forever on each little subject (and in some ways I would like to go through each topic and all the many unlisted and indeed those that I have not even thought of yet in order to give a better picture for others of what I think and how they sort of chain together, however it takes an incredible amount of time to articulate and that is time that a still poor slave such as myself does not have), but my point is that by wrestling with each of these things one can build up at least a hint of what one actually wants. Ultimately as our era is still primitive none of us will ever achieve anything near our potential, and a certain line of thought would lead one to think that there really is no point in trying as we will be so utterly surpassed by creations in the future, as we have surpassed the miserable past. I can’t even reject that flat out, because it’s true. I try to compensate as much as possible for the present era by trying to manufacture an enclave where the crapness of the present is attenuated and warped into something which is not only just my own design, but what my own design would be in a freer, more advanced era. This is of course difficult.
By consciously rejecting as much as possible of one’s arbitrary starting conditions and thinking exactly what sort of existence one would want in a truly free scenario, one can begin to build at least an approximation of that self. To give some basic examples from my own life: I replaced my country with a better one (and so, am also using a different language much of the time), I change my appearance to the extent possible towards my aesthetic preferences (everyone should look like androgynous Anime characters! Though I am very very bad at this, much to my frustration), I try to stop my own aging and death though it is impossible to do more than just delay death given present technology (most people accept these horrific things as part of some silly rationalization narrative they were taught) and to bring us finally back to what the core topic of this post was meant to be about, I am dismantling the need to sell my labour to avoid starvation by running huge surpluses with the rest of the world and trading said surpluses for assets that pay me to own them.
It is important to remove the need to sell ones labour as it is both something that, upon conscious reflection in the above manner (first rejecting all the arbitrary things one did not choose or choose only as part of a semi-automatic reactionary process, and then filling in what one is on a blank slate) is of course not something that would be choosen in an ideal situation unless one is a masochist (while my own extravagant fetishes are scandalous in their own regards, a masochist I am not), and because it itself interferes greatly with the ability to reflect at all (the aforementioned struggle against the void activity), as it fills one’s life with noise, is spiritually draining and consumes preposterous amounts of time.
Indeed I feel that there is a fear of the silence, a fear of true freedom that grips many people and urges them subconsciously to fill their lives with noise, such as work and children, so that they don’t have to ever face the internal void. There’s a paradoxical burden of freedom that comes to the financially and relationally independent person, the burden of no longer having an excuse for wallowing in mediocrity. A man with a career and several screaming children frequently wears his busyness as a badge of honour, as if choosing to get himself neck deep in spam disobliges him of actually having to achieve anything.,
So coming back fully to the desire to be rich (again by my definition at the start of the article), I find it difficult to imagine how anybody could come to different conclusions to myself, at least among those who engage in substantial amounts of self-reflection, internal war, self parody and indeed self self parody for the enthusiastic. The spiritual cost of being poor is far too high, letting alone the fact that it should feature in nobody’s ideal situation (save our friends the masochists and their delightful fetishes). In particular, many people in my group of friends are of particularly unusually high intelligence and capable of the most hilarious and advanced self parody and other cultural exploits, but not one of them has any desire to break the shackles of slavery and climb the slavery mountain to the beautiful summit still shrouded in mist. Most of them have more fundamental capacity and speed of development than me, so I feel a bitter waste that they have fallen aside even as I trudge onwards and up at my own almost-retarded-in-some-aspects pace. Every month I swap my surplus for more assets that pay me to own them. In less than 3 years of slavery I have already started to build large amounts of momentum, as the past purchased assets themselves also buy more and more assets on my behalf. But it feels almost lonely leaving good men to the own ends in the land of slaves below. Especially considering that if they applied themselves to the same quest of liberation it would be me panting and flailing bringing up the rear as they raced ahead of me to some epic freedom. The resulting collective spiritual development would likely trigger spectacular cultural mind fucks as the combined potential of several individuals was fully unshackled and allowed to synergise.
Unfortunately I have yet to convince anyone on my manner of thinking, and I have a feeling this article will spark more confusion than insight. Alone I walk up to the summit.
But I think at the summit lies not innocent liberation, when one lives free with no negative externalities. Triumph at the summit involves one sitting atop the throne of the master, graduating from exploited to exploiter. One will skim an unearned surplus from the employed in order to fund a lifestyle of high culture and unencumbed spiritual exploration. This is just as Karl Marx described. Enslave or be enslaved.
Tue, December 10 2013 @ 20:12 » Uncategorized » No Comments
Never buy anything that one would feel uncomfortable holding after less than a 50% increase in market price. Assuming unchanged fundamentals, if one feels that one should sell after say, a 30% increase in price, one paid too much for the asset in the first place.
It’s always ok to sell something for a cheap price if someone else is willing to sell one an equivalent asset for an even cheaper price. However, the perceived value difference should be large, both because of transaction costs, and more importantly as a disciplining tool to encourage rigorously determined initial decisions that avoid the need to trade out into even cheaper positions at a later date. The selling decision in this case (selling cheap to buy cheaper) should be made regardless of the current market price relative to the price paid. i.e. one should not give heed to whether the sell action generates a capital gain or loss, nor should heed be given to the magnitude of such gain or loss.
Commodities are not investments. Over the extreme long term, the value of all commodities has been dropping towards zero.
The profit is made when one buys very cheap assets, not when one sells. Gains are locked in the instant an asset is purchased at a large discount to a conservative valuation of said asset.
Rigorously resist price anchoring (though this will be almost impossible). In your spreadsheet summary of securities, only display ratios and historical movements in said ratios, never directly display the market price.
Something that has increased dramatically in market price may still be an incredible bargain, and something that has fallen dramatically in market price may still be terribly overpriced.
If you find the big whale, harpoon it with everything you have. The big whale will double in price and still be ridiculously cheap. One will need fortitude to continue buying it at this point.
Do not build the overall strategy around tax minimisation. Expend all of ones energy and fury on finding the cheapest assets.
Do not waste time trying to understand any of the underlying businesses that one invests in. Even the people running the businesses, the people who understand the businesses the most, will not be able to make any usefully accurate prediction about the future.
The value of an asset is determined by the dividends, interest payments and other cash flows generated, as well as the balance sheet metrics such as net cash, net current assets, book value etc. and the historical movements in such things. The market price has nothing whatsoever to do with the value of the asset.
If one desires to track progress, do so by tracking the receipt of investment income or by the change in book value of ones holdings.
The market price of a security does not command anything. The market price is an option to engage in a voluntary exchange. Utilise this option when it is advantageous to oneself, ignore it at all other times.
A good investment is an investment made when rigorous analysis indicates a clear discount to a conservative valuation is present. The ultimate profitability of the investment does not change this classification. Good investments can ultimately result in a permanent impairment of capital and still be good investments, because the investment was rigorously justified by the facts available at the time of investment. Equally, bad investments can be profitable, but the unjustifiable logic that they were initiated with stands eternally unchanged. It should be expected that, using the above definitions, overall, good investments will tend to result in better outcomes than bad investments.
Ownership of an equity security should be understood as actual ownership of the underlying entity and balance sheet. Ownership is not a slave to the market price, it is precisely the opposite. The balance sheet is real, the cash is real, the cash flows are real, the dividends are real. The market price is just an empheral, formless option.
A general fall in the prices of all investment assets is a highly desirable occurrence for any individual who expects to be a net purchaser (a net saver) of investment assets in the future. A general rise in prices of investment assets is an unmitigated disaster, but there is nothing an individual can do about this.
The concept of mean reversion is not useful. Waving the principle of mean reversion around as a wand to justify the purchase of a cheap asset with no clear exit strategy is an unnecessary rationalisation of a course of action that requires no rationalisation. The need to appeal to the future agreement of others with ones decision as manifested through a rise in the market price of the asset in question as a justification merely displays a lack of conviction and true understanding of the actual real value of the asset. One does not need an exit strategy when paying ¥5,000 for a ¥10,000 note.
Don’t talk oneself out of paying ¥5,000 for a ¥10,000 note. This is not a useful skill to have or develop.
In the case of two equivalently cheap securities with the only difference being the scale of the entities (as represented by say, an order of magnitude difference in the market capitalisation), always favour the smaller entity. Smaller entities are more likely to be bought out, have a larger limit to ultimate growth and depending on the size of ones empire, may be small enough that one can directly exert some form of control/influence (limited or otherwise) on the mechanical realisation of value.
Net current assets growing much faster than book value is a good sign of a semi-self liquidating business that is refusing to make poor return investments in real capital. Good things happen to people who own such entities.
Demand an additional margin of safety (cheaper price) for securities that do not pay a dividend, or pay only a low rate (less than 2%). An old aristocrat would rightly believe that If it doesn’t cash-flow, it’s not really an investment.
Don’t pay more than 90% of book value for anything.
People spend too much time looking for businesses where additional capital can be invested at high rates of return, and spend too little time looking for businesses where large amounts of capital can be extracted and returned to owners without significant negative impact to the business itself.
Nobody can find the cheapest assets for you. Start shoveling, start turning over rocks, start checking the numbers. It’s the only way.
Don’t read the news, or if you have to, read it with a 40 year delay. Ignorance of the vomit warblings of others is an advantage that one should refuse to give up.
There is no tradeoff between risk and return. The lowest risk assets, such as historically profitable equities trading at less than net cash, are also the highest return assets.
No asset is inheritantly low or high risk. The price paid for the asset determines both the risk and the return.
Sun, March 10 2013 @ 18:03 » Investing » 2 Comments
Fujishouji (藤商事, security code 6257) is a public company trading on the Jasdaq stock exchange. I found this entity by trawling through a hundred or so quarterly reports of different companies. I ran an initial share screener set to filter out shares that were unlikely to be scandalously cheap based on some balance sheet metrics.
The company is headquartered in Osaka and makes Pachinko and Pachislot machines. Interestingly, one machine they sell is an adaptation of the anime 地獄少女 (Jigoku shoujo, probably best translated as “Hell girl”) which particularly appealed to my aesthetic tastes. They have a lovely site dedicated to it that one can peruse. In any case what sparked my interest in the shares of the company was not any appeal of their products nor any bullishness on their industry, but the unusual amount of value contained within their balance sheet and the relatively steady improvement of said balance sheet since listing on the Jasdaq in 2007.
According to calculations I have made from the company’s quarterly figures there is net cash per share (that is, cash minus total liabilities) of ¥67,084, net current assets (current assets minus total liabilities) of ¥118,740 per share and book value of ¥172,039 per share. Book value has grown from ¥140,006 per share in the December 2005 report to the aforementioned ¥172,039 in December 2011, a modest 3.49% compound annual growth rate. Of course this rate of growth is yen denominated, so the trend of flat to small increases in the yen’s purchasing power must also be taken into account, as well as the very low interest rates obtainable among yen denominated fixed income securities. Furthermore, dividends amounting to ¥4,000 per year were paid in the fiscal years ending March 2006 and March 2007, while in each of the years following this ¥4,500 per share has been returned to shareholders.
There have been two modest share buybacks occurring in Q4 2010 and Q1 2011. Both buybacks reduced share count by 3,000 shares, from 254,955 shares before the buybacks to 248,955 shares following the completion of the second buyback, a cumulative reduction of 2.33% of outstanding float.
Considering the security recently traded at a price of ¥89,900, it would seem to be an investment with a significant margin of safety. Using the net cash position of ¥67,084 per share, it should be possible to pay a dividend of such magnitude were one able to gain control of the company, and that is after all liabilities have first been extinguished. Following payment of this massive dividend, one would still retain the historically profitable operating business, including all related inventory, accounts receivable, machinery, land and buildings. There are even some marketable securities in other companies to be found in possession by Fujishouji, which would also remain after the huge dividend payment had been distributed. At a market capitalisation of ¥22.93 billion, only the greater of mercantile princes among us are likely to have the resources to stage a takeover attempt, so the above value realisation scenario remains quite unlikely. However, at recent prices the dividend on the security alone yields a massive 5%. Provided the dividend is maintained at this level, as it has been for the past several years, a long wait to unlock the full value held within this balance sheet need not be an unduly unpleasant experience.
As mentioned above, I have no insight to offer on the future business prospects of neither Fujishouji nor the industry it operates in. It is certainly a possibility that conditions could rapidly deteriorate, as is the case for any enterprise. However, the increase in book value over several years, the past steady payment of dividends, the case of two relatively recent minor share buybacks, and most of all, the mind blowing wall of cash held by Fujishouji would lead me to believe that the margin of safety present when acquiring an interest in the entity at current prices is as sufficient as even the most prudent of enterprising gentlemen could demand.
Sat, May 5 2012 @ 18:05 » Investing, Japan, net nets, The Fires of Industry » No Comments
Having been employed for less than a year, I still have not entirely succumbed to the madness of
battery humans. As happens, many of the people I work with have recently had or are about to have
children. In fact, there are only two of us in the particular group of the machine that I labour in that do
not know the joy of ownership of a screaming, insentient, ravenous resource consumer.
Before the Bosses Boss got promoted (to the Bosses new Bosses Boss) I had the privilege of
visiting Bloomberg’s office in the Marunouchi building with him. It is a most beautiful office, enough
to shame me into wanting to at least clear out the several cubic meters of crap that myself and
another accomplice hid under several unused desks at our own office. Apparently their magnificent
fish tank cracked during the earthquake and spilled all over the place, but such is the price of mind
fucking your customers with grandeur.
We were talking to a most engaging man, gainfully employed/enslaved at Bloomberg, and the topic
turned to children. He had recently had a child, as had the Bosses Boss. He asked me if I had any
children, to which I replied “No, I’m still happy.” The Bosses Boss then exclaimed “You don’t know
what happiness is yet!” I then got to hear how awesome it is to have a mini version of oneself run
around the place and bump into things.
But what is this happiness that they speak of? I see exhausted, sleep deprived men snap at each
other over trivialities. Empty gazes at pictures of their offspring as a man driven insane in the desert
might look upon a mirage, filled with false hope. Years of additional slavery to acquire the resources
to feed the helpless thing.
There is significant statistical evidence that people who have children report lower life satisfaction than those who do not. But more than this, what troubles me directly is seeing people forget and give up on their own dreams and pile their hopes and aspirations onto their children, ever before the child even becomes properly sentient. I am starting to believe that in many people (but certainly not all), some fire within them is quenched when they have a child. Why make the effort to chase some mad dream or quest or aesthetic or adventure, why go to the trouble building a tower into the heavens when one can just sink into the lazy subconscious delusion that ones child will achieve everything that you gave up on. But the child is just the same as the parent. In time the child will come face to face with the drudgery and relentless demands of intellectual vigour required to chase its own dreams. If it flinches and abdicates the aspiration of building castles in the sky to its own offspring, then 15 – 50 years after its parent it will have fallen into the same trap and repeat the selfless folly in an endless cycle.
I myself used to actually think in a way resembling the above, and in a more indefensibly conscious
manner than most people. I grew up in Ireland, but hated the place. I planned out my dream to move
to Japan, a country that is much more suited to my mentality and preference set and is filled with
awesome shit that I was told wasn’t possible and continues to blow my mind to this day. I told myself
if I just got to Japan, got a job, got married and had a few children, I could then leave the
responsibility of thriving within Japan and attempting of greater things to my future children and
grandchildren. I figured that I’d never be able to get my Japanese to high enough a level to be able
to properly achieve my full potential and my intellectual laziness lead me to push the hard work onto
my dreams for my future children.
Looking back at my thought process now, I can say I am pretty disgusted at my past self for
displaying such a lack of vigour. I achieved my dream of escaping to Japan, and it has turned out to
be even slightly better than my excessively high hopes. I must admit, as anticipated by my
unvigourous past self, raising my language ability comprehensively to the point of being able to
have proper intellectual discussion and to truly thrive is really hard. But that is no excuse to
surrender the most exciting and worthy quests to false hope for my potential future children.
Everything cannot be put on hold because of an unfortunate, but correctable with enough heroic
effort, case of illiteracy. I have spent much of the past months in a sort of catch up phase, as the
realisation came upon me that voluntary failure is a disgusting way of life. I may even still have
children, but if so it will be a side quest of merit in its own regard and not a glorified tool for
surrendering to mediocrity.
Before I get lynched by a mob made up of every human who is considering having or has had a child, I would stress that I am not making some ridiculous condemnation of the decision to procreate. Rather I am giving a sincere warning against losing oneself to false hope and false comfort, which will end in profound disappointment in oneself. I am sure there are many wonderful experiences related to having offspring. But if you want to live in the place of your dreams, if you don’t want to work as a slave for your whole life, if you want to create something beautiful, if you dream of having an elegant tea party with top hats and cigars made of ￥10,000 notes on top of a mountain, you have to get the hell out there and make it happen yourself. Your future children cannot live your dreams for you, and you will end up feeling empty and disappointed to the extent that you remap your own hopes and aspirations on to them.
Mon, January 23 2012 @ 08:01 » Uncategorized » No Comments